8.) You cry at night when brushing your teeth because you are so tired. Holding your arm up is exhausting.
7.) Your plants died because you were too tired to water them. Every time you look at those dry, parched vines, you start sniffling. They deserved better.
5.) You wonder what you used to do before all of this training and honestly cannot remember. The lack of memory causes you to, yup, you guessed it. More tears.
4.) Looking at salted watermelon makes you cry because it's the only positive in your life right now. Watermelon is so beautiful yet so underappreciated.
3.) You allow your child to watch The Lego Movie not once, not twice, but three times in one day, mostly because you are too tired to get off the couch. Your failure as a parent makes you cry.
Everything is awesome...uh, nope. Not even close.
2.) You are too tired to wonder why you are doing this; you just do it. And the lack of contemplation makes you...wait for it...cry.
and the #1 sign you are having an ultramarathon training breakdown...
The first thing on your mind in the morning and the last thing before you go to bed is the number of miles you need to run - in the next day, next week, next month. And the number is so great and so overwhelming that you...yup...cry. But you signed up for this (hello, first world problems), so guess what? Stop crying and start running.
I spent the weekend rehydrating and restocking our Kleenex supply. Between my knee pain (IT issues; nothing to get excited about) and the tears, I realized the idea of an ultra is much bigger than I ever anticipated. Am I in over my head? I have no idea. Watching "Desert Runners" on Saturday was exactly the boost I needed; if non-professional runners can do 250km races in some of the toughest conditions in the world, getting through the Red Rock loop (and beyond) without a breakdown is possible. As of tomorrow, we are 40 days out. Our freezer is stocked with lots and lots of ice and there is plenty of watermelon to go around. I can do this, right?